lost and confused
I ate some mushrooms this past weekend and that was one of the strangest trips I have ever had. hahaa. I actually COMPLETELY lost my mind. I forgot where I was , who I was, what things were and why they existed. It was so weird. Thankfully my friend wasn’t quite as messed as I was, and he guided me. He taught me not to be scared, and held my hand. It was actually so cute. I imagine it must have been hilarious hearing me ask him what the sidewalk was and why there were people outside. I forgot everything but knew that I had a mind and I was so scared I would never remember my life or the people in it. It also made me insanely anti social (which has never ever happened to me on shrooms before), if I had to talk to someone other than my friend I would probably have cried.
Despite the fact that it was a negative trip, I’m still happy I experienced it . There were moments of pure content in my confusion. I felt like I was just put on the earth, like I was an alien.
I think I felt so sad, scared, isolated, and anti social because I’ve been feeling really down lately. This taught me that shrooms don’t mask reality, and make you happy. They bring out the emotion that is deep down in you when you eat them. They become you, enhance your feelings and make things extremely confusing. Every previous time I’ve done them I was happy, or excited which led me to believe that they would always make me feel all lovely and super stoked.
I still love mushies, <3 they teach me things. And thankfully I did get my mind back, hah.
